Niall Horan, Facing My Fears & A Rant About Annoying People At Concerts

if you get lost in the light, it's okay I can see in the dark 

in case Niall forgot where Ireland is ;)

I am terrified of driving. RealLY, really terrified. For the first three months of having my license I would only drive to school because I would have a full blown anxiety attack behind the wheel. I'm definitely better now and can drive pretty much anywhere without anxiety BUT the one thing I hadn't yet mastered was highway driving. Then, I bought tickets to see Niall Horan at 'Red Rocks', an hour and a half drive from me and I would have to go by myself which means driving by myself. So, you can see why today was a bit intimidating for me. 

I'm very happy to say driving there was like NOTHING. I didn't have anxiety, I was blasting One Direction and living my best life. I only had a slight breakdown when I took the wrong exit and then couldn't get back on the highway because Colorado just decided to shutdown every lane except one on the entire highway, which was just a gREAT idea :))))) 

I am a glowing GODDESS.

Then, I had another problem when I got to the venue. See, my best friend was supposed to go with me but she said she didn't want to come the day before the concert (great, I know) because she's not a fan of Niall's solo stuff. (I don't understand but to each their own.) Anyways, I've never been to a concert on my own, I am an extreme introvert and I don't do well with doing things by myself so the entire time driving up, waiting in line and during Maren Morris, I kept thinking, "I shouldn't have come, I should've sold my ticket and stayed home, this is weird, people are staring at you and you're gonna have no fun on your own." I kept saying that to myself over and over, letting that stupid voice in my head that's prevented me from enjoying life so many times before, creep back in again. But, the second Niall came on stage that voice went silent. Because of Niall and because of this event I overcame not one, but two of my fears. My fear of driving and my fear of going to concerts alone. Face your fears kids and you might just come out on the other side. (Except with spiders, I will never face that fear, ever.)

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This was one of the best nights of my life. Seeing Niall Horan, someone I've been listening to since I was a kid, live out his dream of playing at Red Rocks, was magical. He cried during Flicker which made me cry, he had us sing Fool's Gold twice, he talked extensively about how he's dreamed of this moment since he was eleven, he kept saying "you all are here for me." in his cute little accent, and I broke my neck dancing so hard to Drag Me Down. I don't care that I was by myself, I was completely happy tonight, which is a feeling I haven't had a lot of this past year.

Like I said, Niall kept saying he couldn't believe we were all there for him and it really got me thinking. During the 1D days, Niall was the least popular, we all know this. Finding a Niall girl was like finding an endangered animal, very rare but beautiful and valid. He pretty much never had solos on the albums, not until 'Made In The AM' and was just, I don't know, not as popular as the other boys and people would tell him that too which is just rude. But, can you imagine being in that headspace for 5 years of not being liked as much as your friends, being told you're not as good as them, what that does for your self confidence and to now be selling out Red Rocks, all on your own? He probably still has self confidence issues from that time and I hope tonight and the rest of this tour has shown him he's talented and amazing and he can do it all on his own, he doesn't need anyone else to be there for people to sell out a venue. Yeah we were there for YOU Niall, believe it.

niall reminded me so much of tom petty, his presence on stage was so similar!

OKAY, now I wasn't planning about talking about this but after tonight, I got SHIT to say. So, I had general admission for this concert which is no big deal, I got there literally a half an hour before the doors opened and somehow got front row of the GA area (I'm so talented). SO, can someone please explain to me why these three men came up to me TEN minutes before the show started and asked me to scoot over so they could sit there, which I did because I'm not evil which in hindsight I shouldn't have done because they were on my NERVES. These three men spent the entire concert sitting down, on their phones scrolling through facebook,  and we were all so squished together and I couldn't move. Listen, it's your money so if you want to spend loads of it on a concert just to be on your phone and not paying attention then sure, you do that but I don't understand it, at all. Or, if you're gonna do it, can't you do that in that back instead of pushing your way through to the front and squishing me and effecting my experience, it's just annoying. Those guys were on the right of me but the girls on the left weren't as bad but they weren't much better. They spent the ENTIRE concert recording it on their phones and texting people on snapchat. *Deep Sigh* Listen ... again, it's your money and you can have your experience however you want but, you're ruining the experience for people around you with your bright screen and bright flash from your phone. You're also effecting Niall's experience who said multiple times before and during the show to put your phones away and live in the moment. He even recorded the entire show so we could look back on it later so we wouldn't have to record it on our phones. Why is it so hard for people to just not need photo/video evidence of everything they do at all times of day? Looking out at the crowd and just seeing phone screens tonight just really irked me for some reason. You can't ever experience this moment again so why not live in it while it's happening? 

Alright, rant over but I would just like to say again how talented Niall is and how proud I am of the little blonde haired boy from Ireland. 

Solo Road Trip Playlist:

-I'll Fight by Wilco

-Heart Attack by One Direction

-Ill With Want by The Avett Brothers

-Slide by James Bay

-A Little Bit Longer by The Jonas Brothers

All The Love, Amalia